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I used to dream big. The kind of girl who thought that she could do anything she sets her mind to. Without any doubt. Fearless. Everything was just within a grasp.
The one who tried to look on the brightside of every single bad thing. yep. TRIED.

Lies after lies. Hurt after hurt. Betrayal after betrayal.
Why even bother to try anymore? It's sick. I have become numb.
I guess everyone at some point of their lives have experienced this. At least I would like to think that. It's easier that way.

But I know, I'd REALLY hope so with an ache, that it gets better. One day, it will. I, would get better. A human being should not be living like this. It's unhealthy. it hurts me even more to know that i hurt the people around me just to feel like this. Haven't expected this. at all. Where did I go wrong?
How can a person who was so happy, not a care in the world, gets so overwhelmed and now is hanging by a thread.

Trying SO hard to hold on to the last inch of the cutting thread. Bleeding tears and stuff. Crying so often to nothing, I'm starting to think I'm losing my mind.
Do not complain, better things will come. Promises, whether you want it or not, just believe in the bullcrap.

SOMETHING TO HOLD ON TO.