Iqat simpul mati

...........and here we go.
worrying about the worst can be a real pain in the ass.
you said, I'll understand when I'm older.
I'm older now, maybe not to the extend of being old. But I am older.
I can say I feel the breeze bringing in the scent of sincerity.
The time between my last post and now, which has been only a few months, abundance of realization.
Everywhere I go, I see a lot of fighting. Fighting towards worthless things.
I find it so much better use of my time to not care about most things.
I see it now. What they were trying to say. A minority "they".
I would like to apologize for my lack of 'word skills' but I won't.
I have a cold.

and I have a few words, to 'you'. What you are doing to her is not fair. It's not fair for you to say those words, killing her from the inside, as if she's not feeling guilty enough. Say what you want, "she's happy now, she's at peace, she accepted her destiny, she's a lucky girl", but as long as you keep holding this againts her, no matter how much GOOD you're trying to do with those innocent intentions, you will never ever ever bring peace to the both of you. No matter how many times you're telling us, a WHOLE bunch of us, that you are over her, as long as you keep holding this againts her, intentionally or not, you are just holding her. TIGHT in your grip. Dude! Wake up!!!! She's suffocating. Not annoyed. Suffocating. You are killing her. And you will kill her future. Here's some words of advice. LET HER GO. let her go. let her go.
Want to know how? Just stop talking about it. Thinking, that's inevitable. But talking, writing, sign-languaging, I don't care just stop it.
You're trying to tell everybody, EVERYBODY that she's taught you the best thing that a person could ever learn. I could see right through you mister. This I know, because no matter how much I hate to admit, we are so much alike than you'll ever know. It's like you are see-through to me. Those fake smiles, you know they are fake. We are just polite not to point it out because we're educated. Stop being such an attention whore. How could you even think about using her as a tool. KUDOS to you for finding a way to flip this around. What you are doing, that you always point out as 'noble' are just disgusting. Let her go.