#np Sephia

I can't believe this is really happening.
Is this really happening?
Is this the answer to the uneasy feeling I've been feeling all day?
If it is....oh Allah please give me the strength to bear the pain.

This sucks! I knew from the first time I met you what would happen if I did what I've done.
I've been trying so much to push the feelings aside.
Who are we kidding, you were pulling me in to.
Thinking that I could resist.
Resistance could only hold for so long.

I know, I know I don't deserve such greatness. I know I must change my ways.
But please, give me a chance. My friends, "those people" would be the only thing I have if what I expect is happening.
I know I'm not near as good as what you have right now.
And if I'm in her place, I would be disgusted.
But I'm in mine right now, and it hurts. so much.
It hurts knowing I would probably never find another greatness like you.
It hurts knowing the fact that I don't deserve you.
It hurts to know the fact that you would probably be the best thing that I could ever have.
It hurts knowing the fact that you are the only person I've opened up to.
It hurts how much I'm disgusted with myself.
It hurts not being able to help it.
It sucks that you are the only person I'm ready to change for.
I know I have to stop. Stop hoping. Hoping that you would open a little bit of your heart to me. This, is hard.

I know if this were not meant to be then I'll meet my 'one'. Who would be the greatest thing that would happen to me.
But right now, I have no idea if this are meant to be or not.
Listening to the song by Sheila On 7, it's as if I could hear what you are saying.
Ada jodoh kita jumpa lagi. Assalamualaikum.